Kelvin Kwok Testimony 2024
Hello! My name is Kelvin and I will be sharing my testimony so let’s just get into it. I have always been in the church for as long as I can remember. My parents went to church so I did too. Every Sunday just getting taken out of bed and brought to church, always with a struggle. It didn’t feel like something I had any passion or personal interest in, rather just another obligation that I went to because I was supposed to. Monday to Friday I go to school, Saturday is Chinese school, and Sunday is church. It went on like this for a while with every week just bringing more complaints because I didn’t want to wake up early and it all just felt a bit boring. Finally, it all finally came crashing down during the pandemic.
When we were all forced to quarantine I was pretty happy with it in all honesty. I didn’t really
have to do anything for school and I could just stay at home all the time without thinking about anything else. This included church and Sunday service which brought about online worship which still causes me some trouble to this day as I feel like I can always excuse myself from going in person. I’ve been working on it but my attendance is spotty at best. I think at this point in time my relationship with God was at its lowest and I was actively straying away rather than passively staying stagnant. Of course, the pandemic came to an end and eventually I had to return, both to regular life and to God.
In my twelfth year of high school my life got a sudden shock as one of my best friends had
attempted to take his own life. This event shook me up to such a degree that I think only
recently have I been able to properly cope with it. I can still remember it vividly and even thinking back on it now I feel a bit haunted. After telling authority figures and knowing that help was on the way, when all I could do was sit and wait, I didn’t turn to my family, or my friends, but I found myself turning to God. I just sat there and prayed. When I was so deeply troubled and was the furthest from God I had been my whole life, still I turned to Him. Everything turned out fine and my friend is well and alive today. Yet that event still haunted me and I would find myself awake late at night just staring out at the night sky and feeling so sentimental. And in those moments I would feel so close to God. And I would just pray. I’ll be honest and say that I have no idea when I accepted Jesus as my savior. Nor do I know most of the other details. All I know is that I was young and in Sunday school when they talked about accepting Jesus as your savior and I figured “yeah sure easy enough” and then I believed.
But it wasn’t until those moments in the dead of night where I felt the weight of it all. After a while I started putting in a bit more effort. Attending Sunday service here and there. Getting immersed in fellowship. It wasn’t that much but it was in those moments that I realized that God is someone that I really want to know better and have a relationship with. I’m still not perfect and my journey has really only just begun, but I know that I want God in my life. I wish to commit myself to God and properly show my belief and devotion to Jesus as my Lord and Savior. To end, I would like to thank everyone that I’ve talked to about christianity and those that shared their testimony with me. I’d also like to thank pastor Calvin for helping me through this baptism class. I also want to thank all my friends and family that have supported me throughout the years. And finally thank you for listening.