I have grown up surrounded by God for my whole life. My parents have always been a good role model to me in reading the bible and attending church services so God has always been present in my life and as a result, I accepted Jesus at the age of 6 knowing that I will always want to live my life out as a Christian. But as I got older, I found myself more distracted with worldly things, I never really lived my life out for
Jesus. Prior to receiving Jesus, my life was full of distractions like school, homework, relationships, extracurricular activities, etc. I often prioritized those things over God, causing me to turn away from God. As I continued to live this way, it slowly became my daily lifestyle. I found it harder to give time and focus to God as I grew to be more lazy and selfish in my relationship with him. I often turned to God only when I needed or wanted something rather than seeking him in everyday moments. The only days where I acknowledged God were Sundays when I was brought to church, but even then, I was there physically but my heart was not there.
As I grew older, I quickly realized that my family will not always be there to foster my relationship with Christ, and when those times came, it was the hardest. I often felt so overwhelmed as so many things in my life were changing and happening at once. I turned to God many times, asking for things to get better, but in reality, I truly was more angry and confused as to why God had made me and my life this way. I began to question him more, and my relationship with Jesus grew distant. It was not until a tipping point in my life when I felt so alone and helpless that I cried out to him one night.
I put all my pride and doubts aside and laid all my burdens out to him, acknowledging that I could no longer lead my life on my own. Immediately, I experienced the comfort of God's presence, and my worries were gone. God has spoken to me through the verse, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6. This verse is a constant reminder that whenever there are difficulties in my life, God will always be with me, even in times when I turn away from him. I am proud to be a Christian and to place all my hope and trust in Christ, for he has always stuck by me, even in times of doubt. I am thankful for the many blessings he has brought to my life. I will live my life to honour Christ and grow a deep relationship with Jesus as he has called me out to live.